I feel the light of Islam
I feel the light of Islamیہ تارہ وہ تارہ ہر تارہ، دیکھو جی سے بھی لگے پیارا، ﺑﻮﻟﻮ ﺭﻧﮓ ﻛﺘﻨﮯ ﮬﮯ...اللہ ﺑﮭﻮﺕ ﺳﻮﻧﺪﺍﺭ ﻛﺮﺗﺎ ﮬﮯ
This past week has been so trying, so stressful, but this day has made it so wonderful. Well first off, I will just tell you: I HAVE A JOB!! I'm working at the Puritan/Backroom as a Dishwasher (6.50 an hour! That seems like so much for me!). I almost didn't call thembecause i tried so many times about a year ago, but tuesday we were supposed to go job hunting and as a long shot i decided to call up the Puritan cuz they already had my application. Well he said to come on over and fill out official paperwork. I was so happy. Then today i returned it and he put me on TOMMOROW! 12-5 baby! I'm so happy.
Last night, we had the dinner at the Athens Restaurant as a follow-up to the semester we took in Classical Heritage-Greek. The food was really good and it was so nice to see everyone and to just have a nice dinner and learn and talk and eat. Hehe sweeeet.
These past few days I have been so incredibly angry. On three seperate occasions I almost got into fights. I'm not saying that i'm some tough or somthing, but when some people be talking smack about me, i was raised "Si tu quierres dicar, tu quierres luchar" (if you want to talk, you fight). That means that you need to be willing to back what you say. I don't know how to deal with people that you pushing up on them and they just keep stepping back. No doubt, i gotten myself in a 1-5 situation before, but that was completely unprovoked by me, no lie. BUt I always do it one on one. I just been so angry lately i don't know why. Life is going good. And i beefed with my English teacher and some librarian (i didn't do this but it is mad funny if you go to Central).
I've been such a jahil/munafrikeen this week. I felt so isolated and just terrible. But tonight I talked to Azra for like 2 hours and it was so refreshing. That sister is so amazing, just incredible. I'm so glad she's back! Also, Nazkik and Nazaar told me about this guy he wants to convert, so we been talking to him. I wanted to do three-way with him to Azra and me, but he wasn't there. So i really hope that kid converts, inshAllah. So anyway, after a long week, a nice 2 hour chat with Azra, and the knowing that i will be working my first time paid job, has made this whole week seem all better.
AskImam.com
Okay yeah. I really do like that site a lot, but 2 things that really bugged me (when I was on it 2 nights ago):
1. He said that America was the predicessor of Dajjal. Okay WOHW
2. He said that HIV/AIDS is the punishment that people get for being gay. Hhhmm let's see, too bad HIV/AIDS mutatted from the polio vacines that were developed in the Congo and were spread mostly through heterosexual sex, and that though AIDS in America is mainly a "gay" problem, in Africa, homosexuality is extremely taboo and yet some countries have over 25% of the people infected. No doubt all is from Allah, but HIV/AIDS isn't a "gay disease".
BIG UPS TO ASMA MIRZA and URDU WIKI FOR HELPING ME DISPLAY URDU PROPERLY ON THIS COMPUTER!!!
par Borges à 23:26
Islam: Empire of Faith
Well this whole week has been kind of trying. It seemed surprisingly long, maybe it's because i'm returning from school vacation. Still. For example, I believe it was Thursday that it was about 10 below Zero degrees feranheit and I was walking to school. It was soo cold, and I hadn't slept all night so it was really annoying. I've walked in much colder than that, but for some reason that morning just made me hate life. Does anyone else feel like acting like a kafr as soon as they step into school. It's so terrible, I just feel overwhelmed. There are plenty of Muslims mahsALlah, but still. I don't think i'm the only one that feels this way, but it's perhaps a bit worse because I was a kafr, and a really bad one. Well who knows, excuses excuses excuses. Talked to Ahmed today about the Dar Ulooms in England, last night talked to Azra (and Mirza) about Dar Ulooms in BiH (Bosnia).I was watching this documentary tonight "Islam: Empire of Faith" on PBS. It is so good, very good, even though it is done by kafrs it's still really informative. Not deen-wise of course, but for me, it really taught some more about our history after about 100 AH (most of the stuff before that i knew pretty well, which I was surprised at). The early Muslims were so crucial to Western Civilization, as we all know, but some things I did not know:
1. Muslim scholars in Baghdad were the ones that saved the classical Greek and Roman texts from being lost forever.
2. They brought paper back from China
3. That the scholars started out not as lofty philosophers and scientists, but as pragmatists trying to solve the logistical and engineering problems of the massive empire.
4. That Muslims were the formost in textile manufacturing and that textile's were like oil in those days. Pope's, clergy and rich Europeans would get their cloth and garments from Muslims. If you look at some of the most famous "religious" paintings of Christendom, you can see in portraits of The Virgin Mary (Hazrat Maryam) and the like that the garments they are wearing have golden embroidering saying "La Ilaha Ila Allah, Muhammed rasuul Allah" because that is what the best clothes of the day had on them (hey the kafrs didn't know better hehe) 5. Ottomans were called so because they followed the first Muslim Turkish invader (from Central Asia) "Othman" whose hordes converted to Islam and, settled in present day Turkey, and spread Islam through Southern Europe and the Central Asia.
6. To avoid social conflicts, the Ottomans took on poor Christian Balkan youth (from their willing parents) and took them out of poverty raised them (as Muslims) to become the vast beaurocratic class of the Ottoman Empire.
TV: And from the tribal warfare customs of the time, the Quraysh of Mecca were expecting a bloody revenge with the men being killed and the women and childeren being sold into slavery....
My Dad: See Americans don't kill the women and childeren
TV: But that is not what happened. When the Muslims took the city they were kind to the inhabitants and spared their lives, making sure that the people of the city, regardless of their religion, had food and water.
Me: *Triumphant smile* and in my head thinking "yeah cuz thousands of women and childeren haven't been killed by the Americans in Iraq, right?"
You know what I realized today, that I never thought of before, that us American Muslim converts are kind of like the first muslims. Of course I am not comparing us to the best generation, but it's comforting to know that people went through so much more to practice Islam. They broke with hundereds of years of tribal relgion and custom, defied their families and their communities. So there you go, we have our rolemodels in the rejection of Kafr society.
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My dad is seriously annoying me lately. For a kafr, he's pretty accepting of my religion, but it's just the little things, and his terrible life style that annoys me. He doesn't drink or anything like that but ohh he just annoys me. He smokes sooo much it's disgusting. He slurps everything he drinks. He has started sleeping out here in between shifts, which definaltey cramps my "i like to be completely alone and relax" style. He's losing his hearing and almost everything I say I have to repeat. But mashAllah he is a wonderful provider and a wonderful man. He is so kind, and so generous and would od anything. He works so many shifts at a job he hates. He helps my mom so much even though she has chosen for 5 years not to live with him. He is so generous and kind and I am very thankful. Still, anytime 2 people live together, things are bound to get annoying.
par Borges à 22:58
